Try to understand and look into my heart,
Before you are convinced, from what sets me apart.
Just like a painted picture, it displays a physical image.
Your visual concept of me is all you have
That's given...
From what you saw, what you heard, what you fear
Opinions and judgments carved up into your mind, and breathe
complex descriptions of the abnormal me...
Misjudged, misguided, guiled, rejected...
This image of me is what has protected the truth inside
That I hide beneath this opposite of all your lies...
You think you know...
Know the skin off my back, who I am, how I see, think, and hear...
The human consciousness has a sense to denounce and forbear everything….
Yes! Everything...
You'll never understand the nights I suffered...
Suffered from verbal and mental fatal abuse, discrimination, rejection
So you never ever saw my artistic abilities and all; my voice, knowledge, determination, experience, and creativity were to be left unseen.
All you have is this painting,
A mere image of me...
And so I'm disinclined from almost everything....
And just to think about it, your controversial opinions are only existent in your dreams and fantasy...
So you paint a wrong picture of me...
The ones who will see it clearly will look into my eyes,
and look into my heart to understand the truth that I seek morally everyday
in a world that is not promised the day afterwards.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Answering Mouth Disease
Di padang gurun yang sangat panas......
Seorang kakek dan cucunya yang masih kecil berjalan bersama untanya menuju sebuah kota untuk menjual barang-barang mereka. Mereka bertiga terus berjalan, melewati kota demi kota dalam perjalanan tanpa kenal lelah untuk berdagang.
Seorang kakek dan cucunya yang masih kecil berjalan bersama untanya menuju sebuah kota untuk menjual barang-barang mereka. Mereka bertiga terus berjalan, melewati kota demi kota dalam perjalanan tanpa kenal lelah untuk berdagang.
Desert in China
Sang cucu yang begitu bersemangat karena ini adalah pertama kalinya ia keluar dari ladang menuju kota banyak sekali melemparkan pertanyaan-pertanyaan kepada sang kakek. Terjadilah percakapan antara cucu dan sang kakek.
Cucu: Kakek, seperti apakah kota itu?
Kakek: Ramai dan penuh warna.
Cucu: Seperti apakah yang dimaksud dengan penuh warna?
Kakek: Karena penuh dengan berbagai jenis manusia.
Cucu: Apakah ada banyak anak-anak sepertiku?
Kakek: Betul, banyak sekali.
Cucu: Apakah banyak juga kakek-kakek seperti kakek?
Kakek: Cukup banyak.
Cucu: Apakah mereka juga berambut putih seperti kakek?
Kakek: Nak, hari ini adalah hari yang istimewa. Kakek ingin memberi sedikit pelajaran yang luar biasa buatmu.
Cucu: Waw! Apakah itu?
Kakek: Ini kejutan,dan ada syaratnya. Mampukah kamu bertahan?
Cucu: Apapun Kek, apapun syaratnya aku mau.
Kakek: Baiklah, syaratnya adalah kau tutup mulutmu, bukalah telingamu lebar-lebar selama perjalanan ini hingga kita sampai kerumah. Bisa kaan?
Cucu: Bisa kek.
Mereka berjalan menuju kota pertama, Kakek dan Cucu menuntun untanya. Mereka berdua berjalan kaki menuntun unta. Memasuki kota pertama tampaklah serombongan para pedagang yang sedang berdagang, ketika melihat Kakek dan Cucunya menuntun unta, mereka menertawakan Kakek dan Cucunya.
"Kakek dan cucu yang bodoh sekali, punya unta koq jalan kaki. Baru lihat orang sebodoh ini."
Lalu berjalanlah Kakek dan Cucunya menuju kota kedua. Ketika itu sang cucu begitu lelahnya, hingga ia memutuskan untuk menunggang unta sementara Kakek menuntun unta. Ketika memasuki kota kedua untuk berdagang, ada para penduduk yang sedang berkumpul rapat dewan kota. Ketika melihat rombongan cucu-kakek-unta ini lalu berkata-kata satu dengan yang lainnya.
"Dasar cucu tidak tahu diri, kasihan sekali kakek itu, diisuruh jalan kaki menuntun unta sendirian. Cuaca kan panas, benar-benar cucu yang tidak berbakti!"
Lalu sesudah berdagang di kota kedua berangkatlah mereka ke kota ketiga. Kali ini Kakek begitu lelah, bertukar tempatlah mereka. Kali ini Kakek menunggang unta, sementara Cucu menuntun untanya. Memasuki kota ketiga, seperti di kota pertama ada pula gerombolan penduduk yang sedang bersantai-santai. Ketika melihat rombongan cucu-kakek-unta ini mereka berkata-kata satu dengan yang lainnya.
"Dasar kakek gila! Kasihan sekali anak kecil itu, disuruh jalan kaki seharian nuntun unta. Sudah bau tanah saja masih seperti itu. Kakek yang kejam!"
Sesudah berdagang di kota ketiga berangkatlah mereka ke kota terakhir. Saat ini Kakek dan Cucunya begitu lelah, mereka berdua menunggang punggung unta tersebut karena barang dagangan sudah tinggal sedikit. Memasuki kota terakhir, seperti di kota pertama ada pula gerombolan penduduk yang sedang arisan. Ketika melihat Kakek dan Cucunya menunggang unta, mereka berkata-kata satu dengan yang lainnya.
"Ga Kakek, ga Cucu... Sama aja, ga punya belas kasihan. Kasian banget sii unta, disuruh bawa barang, sekaligus juga dikendarai. Benar-benar jahat sekali."
China Desert
Hari menjelang senja, Kakek dan Cucunya berjalan pulang kerumah. Dalam perjalanan pulang, Cucu hanya terdiam berpikir keras. Terjadilah percakapan lain dalam perjalanan pulang mereka.
Kakek: Nak, apakah ada yang mengganggu pikiranmu?
Cucu: Aku bingung Kek.
Kakek: Tentang apa?
Cucu: Tentang orang-orang tadi, mengapa mereka mengata-ngatai kita?
Kakek: Orang tadi mengata-ngatai apa?
Cucu: Kita disebut bodoh, aku disebut cucu tidak berbakti, dan Kakek disebut kejam, bahkan terakhir kita disebut jahat.
Kakek: Lalu mengapa?
Cucu: AAAH!!! Kakek koq begitu? Mengapa Kakek menerima saja kita dicap seperti itu?
Kakek: Wah, rupanya kau belum belajar, Nak.
Cucu:.......... Belajar apa?
Kakek: Pertanyaan Kakek padamu adalah, apakah kita bodoh? Apakah kau cucu tidak berbakti? Apakah aku kejam? Apakah kita jahat? Seperti yang mereka katakan?
Cucu:.............. Tidak.............
Kakek: Kalau kita tidak seperti apa yang mereka katakan, mengapa kita harus peduli dengan apa yang mereka katakan?
Cucu:..........................
Kakek: Lalu soal perkataan mereka, dari mulut siapakah itu berasal?
Cucu: Dari mulut mereka!(setengah marah, karena masih mengingat apa yang sudah terjadi).
Kakek: Lalu itu artinya hak mereka mau bilang apa tentang kita. Mampukah kita mengatur apa yang akan mereka katakan tentang kita? Apakah kita bisa memaksa mereka untuk terus memperkatakan hal-hal manis tentang kita? Dan bukanlah urusan kita mempedulikan apa omongan mereka, karena apa yang mereka omongkan merupakan urusan mereka dengan tuhan mereka. Biarlah kita menjaga diri kita berjalan sesuai dengan jalan Tuhan kita.
Cucu: ..................(tertegu
Kenapa gue nulis cerita Kakek, Cucu dan Unta? Soalnya abis nonton UP.
Bedanya, Kakek di UP kaya anak kecil dan egois. Disini sii Kakek gue bikin model2 Wiseman macam Thio Sam Hong gitu. Wakakakakakakaaka.
Ini cerita pernah baca dolo dimana gt, cuma ga detil bikin ilfeel aja. soo gue perdetil biar asik and idup.
Morale:
1.So the best way is, kalo kita ga seperti yang digosipin go on aja. Enjoy life! Be happy! Ngapain juga jantung sesek, otak pusing, ga bisa tidur, stress mikirin hal ga jelas. Hak mereka koq mo ngomongin kita apa. We Should be flattered, dijadiin bahan omongan meski kita bukan seleb.("seleb" is a dangerous word, bisa memancing kenarsisan). Revenge? Please deh! Ga banget, seperti kata nyokap gue; "ngapain ngurusin sampah!"
wakaakakakakakakakakakakak
2. No matter what you do, people have their own opinion regardless how sincere you do it. So cek hati sendiri aja, ngapain ngurusin omongan orang. hehehe.
Story nya ditulis ulang buat ngegambarin sebuah verses dari kitab Tao "Hua Hu Ching" by Lao Tzu.
"This is the nature of the unenlightened mind: The sense organs, which are limited in scope and ability, randomly gather information. This partial information is arranged into judgments, which are based on previous judgments, which are usually based on someone else's foolish ideas."
Hope you all enjoy the story, tadinya lagi blajar nulis cerita anak.
(rasanya terlalu berat buat dijadiin cerita anak).
But as usual 2 favorite words: "THE HELL!"
wakakakakakakakaka.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Better of Alone
I am so scared of her....
I am scared of her charm....
I am scared of her spells....
I am scared of her traps....
Yes, I am scared of sinning.
I don't want to make all these efforts end up in vain.
I don't want to make my life lost like those who end up strangled in sin
No mater how hard
I have to do this
End all this madness here
Once and for all.....
Better of alone...
Yeah, I think of better of alone.
Waiting...
Erase all those pictures from my mind.
Better of alone....
In deep solitary life
Back into contemplation
Surrounded by tranquility
I am scared of her charm....
I am scared of her spells....
I am scared of her traps....
Yes, I am scared of sinning.
I don't want to make all these efforts end up in vain.
I don't want to make my life lost like those who end up strangled in sin
No mater how hard
I have to do this
End all this madness here
Once and for all.....
Better of alone...
Yeah, I think of better of alone.
Waiting...
Erase all those pictures from my mind.
Better of alone....
In deep solitary life
Back into contemplation
Surrounded by tranquility
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
ENLIGHTENMENT
Enlightenment is not about what's right or wrong.
We are merely human, we have no right to judge others.
We are not God, some of us acted as if he is God.
We have different standard of commonsense, moral, principle and even virtue.
Some people push themselves to swallow something they can’t even comprehend, they seek world's acknowledgement with stubbornness. They consider themselves as a master and surround themselves with selfish pleasures and bestow their grandiose teachings upon the unwary. They think they can reach the higher place in doing such thing by getting admiration from this world. This half-assed enlightenment constantly sacrifices the truth and deviate from God.
The more I think, it gets clearer that there is no such thing as superiority in spirituality.
Only total awareness, total control, endless learning. And why some people get higher respect than the others? Integrity, integrity is the last result of harmony between thoughts, words and works. It’s easy to think, it’s easy to say, but doing what you think you should do, or doing what you said it’s another story. Think right, speak right and do right is the center of harmony. Last measurement is the effect and fruits of his thoughts, words and works.
Enlightenment is not journey to get acknowledgement and admiration from others.
It's about spiritual self-fulfillment journey not to perfection but to total awareness, total control of oneself. When the mind, body and soul become one and act in one harmony and this is the greatest pleasure a man can get.
Attachments, desires, interests, fake comforts are temporary goals.
The real embodiment of the purpose of living is become a highly evolved being. What is highly evolved being? He who practice virtues, never sop learning, never stop changing, never stop believing, being true to others, being true to oneself, being true to The Creator. He who accept the long and often arduous cultivation that is necessary to attain his goals, quietly shoulder whatever responsibilities fall upon his shoulder. Endlessly relinquish his negative habits and attitudes and has sincere heart. He lives in the real world, and extends his virtue to it without discrimination in the daily round in endless imperfect journey called life.
We are merely human, we have no right to judge others.
We are not God, some of us acted as if he is God.
We have different standard of commonsense, moral, principle and even virtue.
Some people push themselves to swallow something they can’t even comprehend, they seek world's acknowledgement with stubbornness. They consider themselves as a master and surround themselves with selfish pleasures and bestow their grandiose teachings upon the unwary. They think they can reach the higher place in doing such thing by getting admiration from this world. This half-assed enlightenment constantly sacrifices the truth and deviate from God.
The more I think, it gets clearer that there is no such thing as superiority in spirituality.
Only total awareness, total control, endless learning. And why some people get higher respect than the others? Integrity, integrity is the last result of harmony between thoughts, words and works. It’s easy to think, it’s easy to say, but doing what you think you should do, or doing what you said it’s another story. Think right, speak right and do right is the center of harmony. Last measurement is the effect and fruits of his thoughts, words and works.
Enlightenment is not journey to get acknowledgement and admiration from others.
It's about spiritual self-fulfillment journey not to perfection but to total awareness, total control of oneself. When the mind, body and soul become one and act in one harmony and this is the greatest pleasure a man can get.
Attachments, desires, interests, fake comforts are temporary goals.
The real embodiment of the purpose of living is become a highly evolved being. What is highly evolved being? He who practice virtues, never sop learning, never stop changing, never stop believing, being true to others, being true to oneself, being true to The Creator. He who accept the long and often arduous cultivation that is necessary to attain his goals, quietly shoulder whatever responsibilities fall upon his shoulder. Endlessly relinquish his negative habits and attitudes and has sincere heart. He lives in the real world, and extends his virtue to it without discrimination in the daily round in endless imperfect journey called life.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
False Church - Real Church
God is Spirit and His kingdom is a spiritual kingdom The church is the body of Christ, which is also a spiritual body comprising if people in whom the Holy Spirit of God dwells. The true church is a spiritual church whereas the false church is the human organizations that proliferate the earth.
The true church is an organism under the guidance of the Holy Spirit of God. Jesus is the Head of the church, His body (Col. 1:18) Jesus Himself, guides each member of the body by the Holy Spirit as in a natural body the head controls the functions of the body via the central nerve system.
The false church is an organization, ruled and controlled by wicked men who have deceived believers into believing that they are the chosen instruments of God. They rule people through doctrine, making them slaves of the church. They use the Bible as a tool to control and manipulate people, extorting money from them, placing them under fear of damnation if they do not obey the church.
Many serious souls are deceived into submission by the false church. If these people wake up to the deception of the false church they are branded as heretics and violently persecuted. The false church takes souls captive into slavery to itself. It does not bring people into a right relationship with God. It has nothing to do with God. It has a form of godliness but it has denied the power of God. The Spirit of God is excluded – God is Spirit, so the false church is total separation from God.
The false church is a wicked institution. It uses doctrine devised to capture souls into slavery to the false church, not into obedience to Jesus Christ. It uses its own interpretations of scripture to legalize its wickedness. Gross iniquities and sins are committed and approved of under the cover of God’s grace. God does not tolerate any sin and will not excuse any sin either. The false church preaches tolerance to sin and is violently opposed to obeying Jesus Christ. Homosexuality, fornication, adultery and other immoralities are not only approved but also openly practiced by false church leadership.
There are various grades of evil in false church organization but at the core of it all is flesh, a man made organization managed by man and not by God. Some claim to be more pure than others but they are all just a different flavor of the same evil. False Church organizations are all fake, not part of Jesus Christ. “That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.” John 3:6. THERE IS NO REMEDY! The root is rotten, the tree and branches are rotten too.
There is only one way to please God: Stay in a relationship with Jesus and be guided by His Spirit every moment of your life. Then you are part of the real church, His body, guided by His Spirit, to do His will. That is the real church.
The true church is an organism under the guidance of the Holy Spirit of God. Jesus is the Head of the church, His body (Col. 1:18) Jesus Himself, guides each member of the body by the Holy Spirit as in a natural body the head controls the functions of the body via the central nerve system.
The false church is an organization, ruled and controlled by wicked men who have deceived believers into believing that they are the chosen instruments of God. They rule people through doctrine, making them slaves of the church. They use the Bible as a tool to control and manipulate people, extorting money from them, placing them under fear of damnation if they do not obey the church.
Many serious souls are deceived into submission by the false church. If these people wake up to the deception of the false church they are branded as heretics and violently persecuted. The false church takes souls captive into slavery to itself. It does not bring people into a right relationship with God. It has nothing to do with God. It has a form of godliness but it has denied the power of God. The Spirit of God is excluded – God is Spirit, so the false church is total separation from God.
The false church is a wicked institution. It uses doctrine devised to capture souls into slavery to the false church, not into obedience to Jesus Christ. It uses its own interpretations of scripture to legalize its wickedness. Gross iniquities and sins are committed and approved of under the cover of God’s grace. God does not tolerate any sin and will not excuse any sin either. The false church preaches tolerance to sin and is violently opposed to obeying Jesus Christ. Homosexuality, fornication, adultery and other immoralities are not only approved but also openly practiced by false church leadership.
There are various grades of evil in false church organization but at the core of it all is flesh, a man made organization managed by man and not by God. Some claim to be more pure than others but they are all just a different flavor of the same evil. False Church organizations are all fake, not part of Jesus Christ. “That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.” John 3:6. THERE IS NO REMEDY! The root is rotten, the tree and branches are rotten too.
There is only one way to please God: Stay in a relationship with Jesus and be guided by His Spirit every moment of your life. Then you are part of the real church, His body, guided by His Spirit, to do His will. That is the real church.
THANK YOU FOR WHATEVER YOU ARE
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
CHRISTIAN CELEBRITY
The glorification of the creature instead of the Creator is a wickedness in the sight of God. Christian celebrities attract the attention to themselves and become rich and famous from the gospel of Jesus Christ. They are adored and followed instead of Jesus, the Lord of lords and King of kings.
Christians adore these celebrities. They are preachers, prophets, healers, singers, worship teams, skit performers, dancers, movie stars and rock stars. They appeal to the flesh, their own and that of their followers. As soon as man is exalted God is forgotten.
They use technology to create an atmosphere of sanctity but it only glorifies and satisfies the flesh. The followers are always in awe of the performer but do not fall down and worship the real God and Master Jesus Christ. Instead of repentance and holiness the performances result in the satisfaction of the flesh. People want to feel good, enjoy the performance. They love their pleasures and their lusts.
God will judge both idols and idolaters, both will go down into the pit। There is no partiality with God, He knows the intention of the heart of man, He judges righteously. All the glory goes to Jesus, He is a jealous God and will not share His glory with man.
Written by Jan Boshoff
Christians adore these celebrities. They are preachers, prophets, healers, singers, worship teams, skit performers, dancers, movie stars and rock stars. They appeal to the flesh, their own and that of their followers. As soon as man is exalted God is forgotten.
They use technology to create an atmosphere of sanctity but it only glorifies and satisfies the flesh. The followers are always in awe of the performer but do not fall down and worship the real God and Master Jesus Christ. Instead of repentance and holiness the performances result in the satisfaction of the flesh. People want to feel good, enjoy the performance. They love their pleasures and their lusts.
God will judge both idols and idolaters, both will go down into the pit। There is no partiality with God, He knows the intention of the heart of man, He judges righteously. All the glory goes to Jesus, He is a jealous God and will not share His glory with man.
Written by Jan Boshoff
My First Post
About Me
I am a sinner, not religious person whatsoever.
Merely a man who try to express what he saw, what he felt, what he heard, what he learned, what he spoke to writings.
Life is an endless journey, full of colors and flavors.
Every single thing has their own reason.
I just want to tell the world the joy of living.
The journey of a sinner...
Learning the truth in Faith, Hope and Love.
Regards.......
I am a sinner, not religious person whatsoever.
Merely a man who try to express what he saw, what he felt, what he heard, what he learned, what he spoke to writings.
Life is an endless journey, full of colors and flavors.
Every single thing has their own reason.
I just want to tell the world the joy of living.
The journey of a sinner...
Learning the truth in Faith, Hope and Love.
Regards.......
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